Being myself.

The Lavender Look: a soft spring inspired make up look
 “It’s a hell of a responsibility to be yourself. It’s much easier to be somebody else or nobody at all.” - Sylvia Plath

I was scrolling through one of my under-utilized social medias and found this quote up there and it couldn't be more relevant to my life.   

I recently took these photos of a beauty look I was hoping to achieve and it totally went in the wrong direction, the light from the day faded and I didn't have the colors I needed to photograph the "look" I thought I wanted.  I got something much, much more though. 

This blogging thing has been pretty frustrating for me the past couple of years solely because I am refusing to sell myself short and do the entire loop bloggers, follow unfollow thing that all the bloggers do.

I also don't have a lot of support from people who already know me and sometimes I just get totally burnt out when trying to build my followers, but I don't just want people who tap, I want the conversation starters, the lovers and the genuine people that will actually get something from my content and live better lives.

Making a difference here is so much more important to me. 

If I make someone feel better, or love themselves more that makes me happier than a bunch of likes on a social media account. 

One day my husband told me why don't you just do it for fun and see where it goes, forget about earning money and at first it really pissed me off because I felt like he just didn't understand. Not bringing in an income after leaving my job was tough, I felt useless. 

But he was so right.  Please don't tell him I said this. Because he is wrong and I am always right.

I can't do what everyone else is doing and expect to stand out because I never will. I have to create something that is all me, all the time.  

Of course, I would love, love to at least pay for my makeup and clothing expenses with funds from this year blog because momma loves her some clothes & trying new make-up but what will be, will be.  Put it out in the world and it will happen right?  

Also shout out to @girrlscout for being one of those inspiring people I have followed for a while now, who made me feel like I could be me and that falling in love with myself was something that was needed not only wanted.

Make Up:
Shadow Palette Urban Decay - Beauty with an Edge
Eylure Eyelashes - Accents No 003
Anastasia Beverly Hills Brow Definer
Maybelline Curvacious Black
Maybelline SuperStay MatteInk - Visionary 
Becca Cosmetics Champagne Pop Highlighter