6 Months Post Partum | Self Love

I am 6 months post partum and I am finally starting to feel good in my clothing, isn't that crazy?

We need to stop allowing the world to tell us when we should be back to "normal".

I don't have money to pay someone to consistently train me and tell me what to eat. I'm doing the things my gym offers and my life allows. Doing your best is better then doing nothing at all.

I have loose skin because I rapidly grew the first few months I was pregnant and put on 30lbs pretty quickly. Everyone at 6 months would ask if I was due any day now, my answer was always nope 3 more months.

C-sections are no fucking joke, you are sliced open in an area you use to do a lot of things, sitting up being one of them. And honestly you don't realize how much of those muscles you use until you can't use them or it hurts to do so. 

Before I got my membership I felt like I was never going to look good again, my ass was flat [still kind of is 🤦🏽‍♀️], my love handles were huge and I just felt like shit in general.  Going to the gym has helped me so much feel better, and eat better because let's be real who wants to eat the little calories they burn during a workout.  You eat better, you drink more water, and you exercise you look and feel better.

Now I'm starting to feel better in my clothing and old stuff is getting a little less snug but it took me 6 months and it will take even longer for me to get where I want to be.

I don't feel pressured I just know I can do better and look better.

But I just wanted to put this out there for anyone who felt like they aren't living up to societies standards, because honestly society isn't living up to my standards now a days so fuck society. 

What do/did you do to make yourself feel better after baby?


Jaxon's Baby Shower

We only have a few short weeks left until baby Jaxon is "supposed" to make his debut and while I know I have been very, very MIA on here lately.  I wanted to finally share his baby shower. 

I want to thank everyone who helped us getting ready and prepare everything for the big day. Especially my SIL Cesilia, I know there were many trips to Target and Hobby Lobby on Jaxon's behalf.

I really wanted something simple.  E is a huge Dallas Cowboy fan so we decided that Jaxon's colors would be navy blue, white, and grey to match.  I didn't want a ton of things that we would have to throw away afterwards so I wanted items I could use in his nursery or put in a shadow box.  

It was exactly what I wanted and I am so happy we were able to share it with all of our family and friends. 

Macaroons & Sugar Cookies : Wink by Erica
Cake : Whisk Bakery
Rice Krispsie Treats: Cesilia 

Balloons : LoveGarlands
Confetti : PapercutsConfetti
Cake Topper : BlessedBlondies
Confetti : BannerBakery
Invite + Thank you Cards : MintedPress
Games : Marys Party Designs

Hello There, Love | Jaxon's Baby Shower
Hello There, Love | Jaxon's Baby Shower
Hello There, Love | Jaxon's Baby Shower
Hello There, Love | Jaxon's Baby Shower
Hello There, Love | Jaxon's Baby Shower
Hello There, Love | Jaxon's Baby Shower
Hello There, Love | Jaxon's Baby Shower
Hello There, Love | Jaxon's Baby Shower
Hello There, Love | Jaxon's Baby Shower

I am

Growing up it has been hard to believe in the essence of timing, the essence that when the time is right it will happen. I always hated when people would tell me, when the time is right it will happen.  Just. Have. Patience. [insert 🙄]

I know how much of the good in my life has come at its own time, it was still a struggle for me to believe and to have patience

Today I still have a hard time believing that something this amazing that we have prayed for has finally come into form. 

I, of course would've loved to keep it to myself until next year when it was time but we have told some family and friends so I know it was time to let all the people who kept us in their prayers over the past 8 years also know. 

I know that this has only been possible because of God and all the prayers we have had for us and our dream to become parents. I do know that the time is right and that our prayers have been answer.  I do know that we have had some of the best people stick by us through all of this and I couldn't ask for a better support system than what we have.  

I am happy and excited to announce that E and I are expecting a baby boy in January 2017. 

I am going to be a mother. I will finally make E a daddy and we will finally be parents.  

I don't think that I am fully aware of how much love and joy is going on in my body, we are currently 16 weeks and 2 days today

So if you asked me in April or early May if I was pregnant and I told you no.  I was but I had no clue.  I didn't find out myself until May 21st.