I feel like every single time I write these post it is all about how fast time is flying. I feel like it was yesterday when it was getting closer to me having to go back to work I literally had a breakdown, if I would’ve known then that it was the “baby blues”. I wouldn’t have felt so bad about being in that emotional space .Read More
I just can't. He is adorable. I know, I know!
In honor of Jaxon turning 2 months yesterday and being a super amazing baby for his shots, I figured I should share his newborn session on the blog today.
First, I have to send a special thank you to Taryn Melgoza Photography for all of the portraits of Jaxon you see here, she is an amazing photographer and even more amazing person. I was a nervous wreck going into to Jaxon's session as a photographer and a new mommy, I thought Jaxon was her worst client ever. Even though I was reassured that this is a typical newborn photographers day, lol.
He was apparently having a "growing" day the day of his session all he wanted to do was eat and poop. And poop he did all over every beautiful item that Taryn put him on. [Don't worry everything was washed immediately after our session]
Taryn seriously if you are reading this, thank you! Thank you for making this new mommy not only feel comfortable that her baby was pooping all over your equipment but also because you took care of him like he was your own and these photographs are AMAZEBALLS.
I mean look at our little bear, isn't he handsome. I love him so much.
Jaxon is doing so well. He is getting bigger day by day. He is holding his head up when we do [very] short periods of tummy time, trying to crawl a little, he is attempting to hold his own bottle, and he is baby talking more and more. I think we held a full conversation today or I hadn't had my coffee yet, one of the two.
The time we spent waiting for our little bear was well spent because I can't describe him as anything less than perfect.
Parenting isn't an easy task to take on, it is tough. But, it is totally worth it. E and I wouldn't change anything about our journey to Jaxon. He is truly our biggest gift from God, and he will always be our little miracle baby. The wait made us better parents, and much more thankful for Jaxon when he arrived.
For those couples out there who are waiting for their little love, as much as I hate to say this because it annoyed the hell out of me before Jaxon, God will give you exactly what you need when you are ready for it. Trust in that.
I don't want this entire blog to become all about pregnancy, I will try to keep it down to a minimum here but this blog is my life and I am indeed pregnant.
Pregnancy especially in my case should be a very joyous time and for the most part it is, I am really happy to be having a baby boy. But I am still fairly scared.
I do know that God has me in his favor and he has given me a ton of strength over the years.
Was I excited when I found out that we were pregnant, overly excited. Excited to the point that I wanted to keep it to ourselves for as long as possible. E on the other hand wanted to tell people right away. We tried to keep it to ourselves for as long as possible but there were changes going on and loved ones were started to take notice.
Our family has a tradition of waiting until the first trimester is over to tell people about being pregnant. I always thought it was a "tradition" but statistically people are less likely to have a miscarriage after the first trimester it drops to 1%.
After years and years of trying for Baby Collins I wanted to just jump for joy. When I initially peed on the stick my hands started to shake, the test came back relatively quick when you normally wait minutes it seemed to only be seconds. It was positive there was no faint line, there was no guessing on my part. There was a perfectly dark positive!
I started screaming for E but he was outside with the dogs and could barely hear me.
Then I noticed that the back of the test had popped open and I was so worried that maybe the test was giving a false positive that I was glad I bought a 2 pack. I felt that maybe it was an error that I was pregnant because after trying for so long that seemed closer to the truth than the fact that I was indeed pregnant.
E finally came inside and I showed him the test and I started crying.
So I took one more test and another test after that I was reassured, but then that just said I was pregnant it didn't say if the baby was in my tube or not. After getting into see an ultrasound tech and finding out that baby was in the right place and had a heart beat it was pretty overwhelming and exciting. I wanted to hug and tell everyone but I know I had to keep it to myself for a bit. But thank goodness for best friends because I was able to tell my bestie and have her there for all the okay this is happening, and I probably annoyed her at times but that is what best friends are for. : ]
It is a joyous, cautious occasion and while it is a roller coaster for me I can't say that I would have life be any other way at the moment. I am tired all the time, hungry for the most part and so ready for vacation that I could just walk out of the office today.
I am so grateful for all the love and well wishes from everyone and I can't wait for us to be parents next year.